Tag: feminist

  • Faggotry (Embodied) // activating queer spaces with multidisciplinary artist Elijah Ndoumbé

    Faggotry (Embodied) // activating queer spaces with multidisciplinary artist Elijah Ndoumbé

    Summing up everything that Elijah Ndoumbé encompasses is no easy task. The magnitude of their brilliance is enthralling and their approach is delicately interrogatory and essentially decolonial. Calling Elijah an artist is a fitting label but really Elijah is gifted & accountable to the need of expressing themselves and members of their community through various channels.

    Born to a French father with Cameroonian roots, Elijah’s father was considered métis in the country where Elijah was born and initially racialised, Paris, France. The term métis suggests “racial impurity” due to being part European and part African, Africa being considered inferior. There was no conversation about Elijah’s father’s Blackness. The only time Elijah would indulge in their ancestry would be through the traditional meals their Cameroonian grandmother prepared. Elijah later moved to the West coast of America, where Elijah’s white mother is from.

    PXSSY PALACE ST. GEORG [Munroe and Nadine] (Point n Shoot | Berlin, Germany | 2017) by Elijah Ndoumbé
    Elijah’s ballet classes in suburban America subtly posed questions about their race and gender. Ballet class was filled with slender, white girls with perfectly arched feet and Elijah had a more prominent ass, darker skin and flat feet.

    “The thing about ballet is that it is a form of dance that relies on a particular and biased body type…this experience of art was very fucking gendered and very racialised and I didn’t realise it at the time because of the context of the space that I was raised in…I don’t want to be the only weirdo in the room, I want to feel seen. When you feel desperately isolated and alone because you know something is different about you and there is shame attached to that, like throughout my childhood, there was shame attached to the desire I have and the ways in which it would show up in my life or the ways I would respond.”

    U DON’T EVEN KNOW ME, captures of @zengaking & @ma_tayo (1) from larger series (120mm | Berlin, Germany | 2017) by Elijah Ndoumbé

    Elijah’s becoming was profoundly jolted during their time at Stanford University where they were “severely politicised.” Studying “Power” and “History” within the context of their bachelors in African & African American Studies and Feminist, Gender & Sexuality Studies intensely informed Elijah about the dynamics of the violent histories that riddle their body, their family’s bodies, and the bodies of members of their community. Subsequently, this questioning of embodiment has nuanced Elijah’s work. “It’s actually quite a decolonial way of thinking – to burst out of the frameworks and to imagine what it looks like for us to build our own while simultaneously infiltrating the ones that exist…I’m a non-binary trans person, who has body dysphoria, also regardless of my complexion, I’m also Black, I’m a person of colour, I’m of African decent; I carry these things in the end. I carry a multitude of things and those things are going to show up in all spaces.”

    Untitled [A Kween, Ascends] (120mm | Cape Town, South Africa | 2017) | Credits: Shot by Thandie Gula-Ndebele and Nazlee Arbee
    Creative Direction and Styling by Elijah Ndoumbé, Nazlee Arbee, and Thandie Gula-Ndebele
    Makeup by Thandie Gula-Ndebele
    Assist by Tandee Mkize
    Initially through the pen, Elijah struggled with this questioning in the form of written pieces that require prolonged simmering in love and care. Elijah was then captivated by expressing themselves through a camera lens and with inspiration and guidance from BBZ London based cultural consultant and video artist, Nadine Davis, Elijah began poetically capturing themselves and members of their community through photography and videography in various personal and global contexts.

    Now based in Cape Town, South Africa, Elijah has captured the emotionally intense experiences of Trans womxn who experience a lot of casual violence, through their work with the Sex Workers Education and Advocacy Taskforce (SWEAT) in a video called SISTAAZHOOD: Conversations on Violence. There are also a couple of photoseries’ accessible on Elijah’s website. The prominence of visual work attributes to the attention paid to this creative outlet but there are infinite ways for Elijah to exist.

    Danyele, a muse (120mm | Palo Alto, California, USA | 2017) by Elijah Ndoumbé

    More recently, Elijah has had the privilege of “doing the work of making space to think”, this time has been an incubation period, in which Elijah has played with other mediums. For example humbly picking up a pen to doodle with some Miles Davis in the background and a “fuck it” mentality. Elijah’s exploration of themselves as an illustrator stems from their desire to be free from operating in fear, especially through a medium that will potentially fuel their other creative expressions. Furthermore, Elijah wishes to deconstruct the notion that only formal training like “art school” certifies one as an “artist” and the labelling of their creation’s as “art”.

    Elijah has also been gravitating to the creative medium they first formally explored, dance. Complimentary to these embodied movements  that resemble freedom and release are Elijah’s well versed music mixes, which could blare through the speakers of events like the Queer Salon. Created by Elijah and facilitated with a Black & Brown Queer DJ duo, Nodiggity, the Queer Salon makes space for Queer, Trans and non-binary Black, Brown and indigenous people of colour to be prioritised through art. While lamenting with me over experiences on dancefloors in Berlin and public restroom lines in Johannesburg, Elijah accentuated their urgency to continue building and facilitating safe and sustainable community spaces.

    Elijah’s current phase of rest has revealed a beauty of the unknown to them and reinforced that despite daily negotiation of their textured identity, their artistry will always be an unyielding, irrefutable and indispensable embodiment of them and theirs.

    Catherine, portrait of (120mm | Palo Alto, California, USA | 2017) by Elijah Ndoumbé
    Express. (Point n Shoot | Cape Town, South Africa | 2017) by Elijah Ndoumbé
    Habibiatch (Point n Shoot | Berlin, Germany | 2017) by Elijah Ndoumbé
    Portrait of the Artist in Their Home Studio (120mm b&w | Cape Town, South Africa | 2018) by Thandie Gula-Ndebele
    Eli Ndoumbé live at Yours Truly (Digital | Cape Town, South Africa | 2018) by Thandie Gula-Ndebele
  • I’m a warrior and not a survivor: Interview with Germaine De Larch on Trans identity and continuing its visibility

    When knee deep into Women’s Month we tend to forget to ask ourselves ‘how do I intend on keeping the conversation going?’ This year has seen an especially politically charged Women’s Month in South Africa. This month was prefaced by the action during the President Jacob Zuma’s election briefing at the Independent Electoral Commission (IEC) being disrupted by the silent protesters, Amanda Mavuso, Naledi Chirwa, Tinyiko Shikwambane and Simamkele Dlakavu.

    Through their protest these Gender activists’ were sparking necessary discussions surrounding gender violence and women’s bodies. Though triggering at times, one of the hardest aspects of gender activism is reminding people that these issues of violence against women are not just for discussion during this single month.

    Yet its discussion ensures that the discourse surrounding women’s bodies, as triggering and difficult as they may be, continues through the pain. When it is no longer fashionable to do so, at risk of being accused of being a gender instigator, we continue. For me Germaine de Larch has been one such activist who continues this work through the use of his body and his words on his blog.

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    Making invisible bodies Visible 

    I first saw Germaine on my Facebook page as an update on a friend’s activities who had “liked” a post of his. What first struck me about the post was his honesty. From the get go he was open about his Trans identity, and struggle to find his space amongst his female feminist community. Having been chastised for wanting to become “a man” he was adamant that he would still remain a feminist but one who is conscious of his new male privilege.

    What struck me about his ideas are their complexity and somewhat contradictory nature. Having never felt like a woman but never feeling like being a man, he explains that his gender identity cannot be comfortably placed on either side of the binary. He describes himself as being a non-binary gender queer whose main focus is to move outside of the gender stereotypes. He describes himself as being a proud feminist politically, which is a big deal for him as he does not identify as just Trans but a “trans man”.

    Germaine’s ideas on gender challenge the normalised binaries. They do so by his questioning of what it means to be Trans, forcing the concept of ‘non-binary’ to be taken seriously. Germaine is not one for such oversimplified notions of gender and would clearly define himself as one who slips in-between such static notions of such.  In an act of ‘intellectual agency’ he understands his new role as a feminist would be one that includes a discussion on his own whiteness and soon to be ‘male privilege’.

    It is within this category that he does not identify as a cisgender male and therefore cannot consider his identity as moving from female to male, Trans(ition), binary. For him, non-binary allows one to explore the different genders whilst not being stuck in either. “As an assigned female at birth (AFAB) person I can still go onto testosterone whilst not proclaiming that I want to be a man”. For Germaine the task for non-binary is not the dismissal of a gender reality but rather the exploration of the self, outside of the set boxes of man and woman.

    “My images are a conscious choice to tell my own story and collaboratively tell the stories of my community, my city.”

    For Germaine a major focus in his work is talking about his own experiences traveling between gender identities as a transgender (Trans) man.  Having recently started hormone treatments and experiencing its effects, much of his conversation would be about his physical reactions and how they impact on his understanding of his politics and who he is.

    He identifies his work as part of the conversation on Trans visibility, “by being visible for others where others that can’t be visible themselves”. He achieves this through portraiture and an engagingly in-depth blog, both of which offer a glance into Germaine’s Trans journey and a theoretical exploration thereof.  It is through his contribution to the discussion on gender that we see his work resonating with a collective (LGBTQI) story.

    Activism through Art

    His work with photography, starting with self-portraits, would be the beginning of his activist work. Suffering from writer’s block at the time, the medium would be a useful outlet for his ideas. “Making portraits was an intense way of asking questions that you can’t escape. What is your gender? What are its performed rites of passage?”

    Through self-portraiture he would perform gender by using props and make-up.  He would examine his responses to gender and his own preconceptions of it. “By doing such analysis you can only find out what you are by what you are not. If I am not this blank canvas then what am I?” For him the art process is one of self-exploration. For him the testosterone and tattoos would also be a crucial part of his method of “painting”. His process becomes one of self-examination, of who you are and who you can be. The body becomes the canvas in which one can “play out the roles”.

    In his work he also wanted to examine the responses of the viewer engaging with these representations. With his relative safety he is provided the opportunity of showing himself where others have to hide.  In being visible he wanted to make the world aware of how we are also vulnerable to troll, those who would also have a lot of negative things to say to her. He shares the responses to his online followers to show them how society can react to Trans individuals.  Though many of the responses have been positive there are still a few who would publicly chastise him for being Trans.

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    A warrior not a survivor 

    Not a survivor, a warrior, recreating myself & my body, learning to live life large, one day at a time. Non-Binary Genderqueer

    In his blog he describes himself as “a warrior and not a survivor”. This was done in response to how so much of the discourse surrounding victims of rape are overshadowed as victims.  He makes this move to warrior as a conscious political act of reclaiming himself outside the confines of ‘rape victim’. “I took who she could have been, a self lost from the violence. By bringing that person back by engaging with a process of becoming”. This is his act of reclamation, the conscious continuous act of developing oneself.

    In dealing with his depression the same act of reclamation is present as it becomes one of also reclaiming a life lost from dealing with depression. “Its about knowing myself, knowing my triggers and weak points so that it’s not just about living with it but living a full life. Reclaiming my life over depression is about not being a victim over something I cannot control.”

    Identity is intersectional

    The inclusion of sexual abuse and mental illness in his writing is there to shows how complex one’s identity one can be whilst living as Trans. “I am not just Trans, I am all these things and they speak to each other explaining who I am.” In highlighting his Trans identity in writing he aims to challenge the medicalised understandings of Trans and sees these two issues as occurring separately. “I can be sick but also Trans and seek medical treatment. I seek medical help as a human being and not as trans”. Yet he is very much aware of the stigma and prejudice surrounding his LGBTQI community and how their very identity as Trans can actually prevent one from getting adequate treatment.

    My work is thus a collaboration with people and places on a journey of who they are, who are interested in playing with their identities, who want to explore the creative possibilities outside of the stereotypes.”

    It’d be easy to forget just how personal the lives of those these theory functions to explain. He whose life, politics and activism cannot be separated from each other. For him these worlds are always in conversation resulting in work that is both deeply personal and furiously conscious.

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